little voices

Two o’clock, Sunday afternoon. It’s gloriously sunny and I’m sitting in the garden. My husband has been away this weekend so I’ve had a few days of full-on parenting, but now, right now this very moment… I’m on my own. You know where the boys are? Inside watching Monsters University on TV.

Did I mention it was a gorgeous day?

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Look how gorgeous it is! What am a doing letting them sit inside on the sofa when they could be running around out here? Well, because when I went in just now to try and hustle them out of the house to play they just didn’t want to. They’re happy where they are. So I’ve decided to come back out here on my own.

Of course I’m not really on my own – there’s a little parental guilt voice that’s nagging me: “But they’ve been watching TV for ages – you should be entertaining them!”, and a reprimanding voice saying “Don’t waste a sunny day, you won’t get many more of them this year.”, and a bossy voice demanding, “if they’re watching TV the least you can do is get something useful done! What do you think you’re doing just sitting there?!” (Well I’m writing a blog post actually, bossy voice so you can get lost).

But I’ve recently been struggling to find any time to myself and I’ve felt like my creative side is stifled. I haven’t really written much beyond a couple of blog posts for weeks. I need time to sit by myself and think.

So I’m going to ignore the guilty voice and the reprimanding voice and the bossy voice. The boys are safe inside and I’m happy in the sunshine and that’s all that matters right now this minute.

I’m taking this moment for me.

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14 thoughts on “little voices

    1. Maddy Post author

      Thanks Reneé. I got a bit done and it was lovely and peaceful! I think we all probably need to get better at silencing the internal critics. x

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  1. Rachael

    “The boys are safe inside and I’m happy in the sunshine” – sounds lovely! I hope that this voice gets louder than the others and you manage to find more and more “me moments” – and I also hope it’s not the last of the sun, for all of us! ;)

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    1. Maddy Post author

      It was lovely Rachael! Didn’t last much longer but I got to read a bit of the writer’s and artist’s yearbook that I’ve been meaning to read for months! x

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  2. Nicola Young

    I love this and why not take time out for yourself. Got to grab it when you can. Sorry to hijack this link to promote my own this week, but just thought I would put it out there. I’m short on writing inspiration myself at the moment. It seems we all are.

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  3. Marija Smits

    I totally hear you Maddy! Finding time to write is a perennial problem for so many of us mums and so any snatched moments to write are definitely to be grabbed (or not – depending on how you feel!). The nagging voice is just a reminder that you have options and that prioritising your own wellbeing is just as valid an option too. Enjoy the sunshine while it lasts!

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    1. Maddy Post author

      You’re right Marija, and prioritising our own wellbeing is particularly important as mums when we spend most of our time putting others first. We can’t be the best we can be unless we find time for ourselves too sometimes! x

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  4. Emily Organ

    Oh no I’m familiar with those voices. I noticed on holiday that it took me about four days to learn how to relax and that I had an excuse to not be doing anything! Those nagging voices can be so noisy. Luckily the sun has lasted this week too. I hope you find some time for your writing x

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