blogger’s block

bloggers-blockA question for my fellow bloggers – do you ever find, when blogging, that you get paralysed by your own thought processes? Like you can’t post anything because everything you write is way too introspective and not interesting enough and who on earth wants to read that, and anyway shouldn’t you be writing about that other stuff that’s way more compelling and means much more to you?.. only you don’t feel comfortable sharing that stuff so ‘argh’ and ‘bleurgh’ and ‘what should I do?!’

Do you get like that?

I’m there at the moment – what’s in my head is not translating to words on the screen. Or not words I have confidence in, anyway. There is so much more I could share on my blog than I do, and so much of it is the interesting stuff, the different stuff, the more controversial or opinionated stuff. Or just simply the real stuff. But I don’t feel comfortable sharing it and I struggle with that feeling because it would make for a much more interesting conversation with my readers. It’s just that it’s a conversation I’m not sure I’m up to having in the wide open space of the world wide web.

At times I’ve thrown caution to the wind and written something very honest or personal, and have been rewarded with a surge in my blog stats and many lovely comments and stimulating conversations. But I struggle to keep it up. Putting myself out there like that puts me on edge. I can do it from time to time (usually when the emotion explodes and the words come bursting out,) but not on a weekly basis. Not even on a monthly basis.

And it’s ended up making me doubt the point of this little blog. It takes me a ridiculous length of time to write a post so if I’m not going to share anything of great depth, how can I justify the time it takes away from my other creative pursuits? I could have spent this evening cracking on with the next section of my illustration course but instead I’m writing this, then I’ll write the linky post for #WhatImWriting tomorrow. The evening will vanish, as will tomorrow evening on commenting.

As I’ve been mulling this over today, bubbling away simultaneously has been the question ‘What if Trump wins the election?! WHAT IF THAT NARCISSIST BECOMES PRESIDENT?!! ‘ Actually my brain is kind of freaking out over that one! Did anyone see the debate last night? Just horrifying. Part of me thinks that’s what I should be writing about. Another part of me thinks ‘what can I say that hasn’t already been said much better by someone else?’ and ‘that rant isn’t for here’… and then the words die before they reach the tips of my fingers.

All this pondering and introspection means this is the third post I’ve written today. I don’t like any of them and I don’t want to publish any of them (and, incidentally, none of them are the Trump rant). Maybe it’s bloggers block, characterised by self-doubt, squirming embarrassment at my own words and an inability to hit the publish button.

So I guess I just tackle it head on like I would writer’s block, don’t I? Force the words, squash the doubt and publish the post?

Right?

Right.

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21 thoughts on “blogger’s block

  1. Nicola Young

    Sometimes you’ve just got to have that rant and that is one of the reasons you have a blog – that voice. I get that you don’t always want those sorts of post to define what your blog is about, but you’re right, they are definitely conversational. Even though you haven’t wrote about ‘that man’, I find it unbelievable and frankly, damn scary, that he is still popular despite everything he’s said and done. You can just see it in his eyes, his expression, what a nasty piece of work he is.
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  2. Cara

    I was thinking I didn’t get this, but actually I censor myself all the time. I kind of think of it as Tracey Emin’s tent. You can overshare quite innocently, and people will put layers of meaning onto it, and they won’t be kind. I figure that people are allowed to think what they want about me, and it needn’t be true. A lot of my poems are from the pov of a fictional character, but I don’t think that comes across very well. People want to know the author, so they find meaning.

    That said, I have had stories and lies made up about me and my character since I was a teenager, and always found them interesting, so maybe I’ve just got a screw loose (if you’re a goth you get to be the one who seduces strangers in graveyards and all that fun – imagine if I could actually be bothered to do that!)

    I also find the concept of Trump (I always type Trumpt- ready to go on to Trumpton, but stop myself and delete the ‘t’) horrifying, but I’m currently trying to pull my neck in a bit, ‘not my circus, not my monkeys.’ Even if they’re the most hopeless bunch of monkeys ever.

    Anyway, sometimes I cannot write poetry at all. sometimes when it is my intention to write poetry and I’ve been preparing and all that, I look and find that everything I’ve written is rubbish and I can’t write for toffee, and who even cares about iambic pentameter. On those days I bingewatch Musketeers, and all comes well eventually (I also clean, but that’s not as interesting).

    I hope you work out what you want to do. I happen to love your blog.
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    1. Maddy Post author

      I love your long comments, Cara and I’m glad you like my blog – thanks! Sounds like you had very interesting teenage years… in everyone else’s head at least! The Trump thing is really playing on my mind – it may be happening in a different country but the sexism and misogyny on display are horrifying and relevant to us all. But still, do I actually want to blog about it? I don’t know. It’s really interesting to read your thoughts – thanks for sharing. xxx
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  3. Turning Up In Devon

    Do you think maybe you’d really enjoy just having some space to draw and do your illustrating course? How about blogging about that more as you go and sharing other images or quick sketches (as you did recently). I find with blogging that I have busy weeks and spend lots of time writing and promoting and reading blogs and other weeks when I don’t and I’ve finally stopped berating myself and now go with the flow. I agree the Donald Trump scenario is a very worrying one but he does seem to have fallen in popularity. Sendin’ ya loadsa positivity xx #whatimwriting

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    1. Maddy Post author

      I think you’ve hit the nail on the head there – yes I would LOVE to have some space to draw and do my illustration course! I probably need to step back from blogging a bit like I did over the summer – I just wrote when I wanted to and didn’t feel the pressure or guilt. Of course over the summer I did that to spend time with the kids – it seems like utter luxury to do it for the sake of drawing! As for Trump – I’m just generally freaked out that he could have any supporters at all. I’m horrified by the sexism that is playing out before our eyes in the presidential race – at how many women think ‘that’s just what men are like’ and how he can talk about sexual abuse like it’s nothing. it’s abhorrent. Thanks for the positivity – appreciated! xx
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  4. suz

    Maddy, I read your post this morning but wanted time to think about this. Coming back to it, I have written several replies, then deleted them. And then it struck me that I too have the same problem. Is this a case of commenter’s block? I want to tell you that we all suffer from insecurities about the things we write on our blog posts or novels or short stories. Sometimes we have lots of poignant things to say. Most times we do not. And that’s OK. That’s what life is like.
    I understand your worry about Trump. I can’t believe anyone would vote for him. But then I couldn’t believe Britain voted for Brexit. There’s a lot of unrest out there. It’s a crazy world we live in.
    Should we write our thoughts?
    I try to avoid politics, religion and sport.
    I’m not sure that’s right.
    Here’s to writing about things that matter. Keep writing. Keep caring. Good luck.
    Great post.
    #WhatImWriting
    PS My comments sound OK in my head but in black and white, not so much. I hit publish eventually :-)
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    1. Maddy Post author

      Thanks for this lovely, warm comment Suz – it looks lovely in black and white! I used to always avoid politics too but this year has been such a year. Brexit hit me like a ton of bricks. It really does feel like there’s so much mad bad stuff out there. It’s hard to know where to start and where to stop with sharing thoughts! xx
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  5. Morgan Prince

    Censoring yourself is not a bad thing Maddy. The thing you need to be careful of though is the self-analysing. I often get bloggers block when I start comparing myself to others or say to myself “that’s been done better by someone else”. That someone else cannot write the post the way you would. If you feel you should write about it, then write. I censor myself too, less so now, but I’m still careful about the things I share on the blog. I hope the block eases for you soon hun. x
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    1. Maddy Post author

      Ah yes Morgan, I sense you know where I’m coming from! I think when you’ve been blogging for a while you end up going through these phases. Sounds like you’ve got a clear idea what you want and where you’re headed with your blog – which is great. I think I struggle because I’m never quite sure if I should really be writing other things. I think perhaps I need to free myself of the ‘you must post every week’ thing, devote more time to drawing and see where that takes me. You’re right though that we all have our own unique voice and I’ve watched yours grow in strength over time. Not sure I’ve even said that to you before but well done! Thanks for commenting xx
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  6. Niki

    I was nodding all the way through. I know exactly what you mean. But I got some good advice from the lovely people over at post40bloggers and many spoke about just writing. Don’t overthink or worry what people will think. Just write. I often find myself cursing that I missed the opportunity to write a particular post about something and then regretting it. So now, yes I do just think right, I’m just gonna write.

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  7. Susan Mann

    I am so bad just now catch up with commenting and blogging, I have been saving up your posts in my inbox I am sorry I’ve not gotten around to it before now. I will get a post up asap. I think you should try to incorporate your drawings and illustrations. You are doing fab and I think you should try not to beat yourself up about this stuff xx
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  8. Sophie Lovett

    That self-doubt demon’s at it again! I totally know what you mean though. I often think of ‘big’ topics I could be covering on my blog, and shy away from them partly because I fear I have nothing to add to the conversation, and partly because those posts where I expose more of my soul take me sooo much longer to write! I feel like my blog’s a bit of a compromise at the moment, and that I’m using it to help support the other things I want to do rather than as a goal in itself – hence limiting my word-heavy posts to focus on writing and unschooling, and having to accept that I’m never going to be able to keep up with as much commenting/replying as I’d like to! I know I could do more with my blog if I wanted to but I just don’t have the time or the energy – or, on balance, the inclination. I’ve toyed with giving it up entirely too, but there’s lots of reasons why I don’t want to do that… For what it’s worth, I really enjoy your posts and they always make me think. I hope you start to get your mojo back soon! xx
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    1. Maddy Post author

      Thanks Sophie, those thoughts about blogging sounds familiar – when you know you could do more with it and sort of want to but mostly don’t. I really like your blog as it is though because it’s very you and not remotely a carbon copy of other blogs. Thanks for commenting. xxx
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  9. Alice @ The Filling Glass

    Oh and again Maddy, I didn’t manage to write a post last week because of exactly this. I worry that no one wants to read a) about what is going on in my life or b) me trying to be positive about life or c) my uneducated opinions about stuff (or any combination of the above). And it takes me days to write on, so the rest of my writing time is down the swanney… And here I am procrastinating about my post for this week! Xxx
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    1. Maddy Post author

      Ah I can empathise with those thoughts, Alice! But your blog is fab – it’s not remotely uneducated and I’m always interested to read your thoughts. Blogging uses up writing time for sure – that’s the main reason why I wonder whether it’s worth it. and yet I keep on, and have been doing so for years so there’s a pretty strong pull coming from somewhere! xxx
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  10. Jean | DelightfulRepast.com

    Since my blog is a food blog (with the occasional travel review or product/equipment review and giveaway), I don’t have too many struggles with myself about what I should or shouldn’t write. But sometimes, like this week when I have too many things going on, I’m having not writer’s block but cook’s block! :D Can’t get in the mood to cook and photograph a recipe. Since I post every Thursday morning, I better get on the ball!
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