Today was the first day of the new school term – the day my eldest son started middle school, my youngest started school nursery and my middle son went back to cheekily sauntering his way through the education system. It was the day for jumping out of ‘summer mode’ and back into routine. It was always going to be a big day for a nostalgic sap like me and, as expected, I felt all the feels:
Amazed pleasure – when my eldest two boys got up and were halfway through breakfast by the time I staggered downstairs (bleary-eyed after a fitful night dreaming about a daddy-long-legs attack… don’t ask), and then went and got themselves ready for school without any prompting at all.
Pride – when my eldest walked off with his best mate towards his new school with nothing more than a grin of excitement, a fond wave and ‘see you later’! in my direction. No nerves whatsoever!
Sudden desire to slap myself in the head – when I realised I’d failed to mention any sort of plan for picking him up. “I realised you didn’t tell me where to meet you after school!” he said later (totally unfazed) “But I saw Alex’s mum and asked her and she said you were coming to meet me at the phone box.” Good old Alex’s mum.
Frustration – at having ‘Slipping Through My Fingers’ by ABBA on repeat in my head for most of the day. “Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture… ” Seriously, those lyrics, I know they’re about a daughter rather than a son but apart from that. Ouch.
Excitement – at starting my #WhatImWriting linky up again after a summer break and seeing people’s posts pop into my inbox and feeling that sense of anticipation about writing and blogging and, best of all, having my writing gang back together again!
Jitters – all morning I had this weird nervous energy. Couldn’t settle. Kept making cups of tea and not drinking them, or boiling the kettle and not pouring the water, or pouring the water into the mug without boiling the kettle first. I needed to go back to tea-making 101 clearly.
Nostalgia – at being back in the school nursery for the third (and final) time. It’s been six years since I first walked through those doors with my first son. It feels exactly the same and totally different.
Actually thinking I might cry – in the reception of the first school where I saw my eldest’s smiling photo on a noticeboard for the school council. The noticeboard is out of date of course – he’s left the school but seeing him there wearing his old school uniform… and then realising he wasn’t at the school any more and would never wear that uniform again… *sob*
Happiness – at seeing my fellow-school-parent-friends and then getting messages from other friends asking me how I was feeling and sending me photos of their kids in new uniform and all of us sharing all the, “this is it! A new stage!” excited emotion.
High-as-a-kite thrilledness – when we were all suddenly planning coffees and nights out and catch ups after the summer. I’ve missed everyone and I love, love LOVE knowing people are going to be around more and that we’re actually going to be able to meet during the day sometimes without kids!
Bliss – on a sunny afternoon walk through the forest with my youngest after his nursery session. He’s always been a brilliant little companion. We strolled along slowly examining bark and twigs and sunlight through the trees and when we got back he said “That was a lovely walk together, Mummy” and my heart melted.
Relief – because all the boys had a good first day. We had ice lollies in the garden and they told me all about it. My eldest was so happy and has already made new friends.
Happy excitement with a hint of disbelief – at realising this is the start of a new chapter where I have more time to myself to write and draw (and clean the house which shouldn’t excite me as much as it does) and to catch up with friends and just be myself by myself more than I’ve had a chance to in nearly a decade!
And now with a glass of wine and three boys upstairs asleep and some of my favourite blogs to read, I think I might have hit… contentment.
Aw glad he boys all had a good first day! It’s bittersweet isn’t it, that back to school moment… I have so much work to catch up on (all summer I said: I’ll get to it in September, and now…!) but I’m looking forward to all (ok nearly all!) of it. And having an uninterrupted cuppa/toilet break! Bliss.

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Ah the joys of the uninterrupted cuppa! Back to school is a funny time. This week is easier now we’re a bit more into the flow of things. thanks for commenting, Rachael. xx
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Lovely lovely Maddy, what a mad old mixture of emotions. I hope it all settles down as the first weeks pass, and you start enjoying your new found freedom. Sending lots of hugs your way xxx
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Thanks Reneé! Feeling more settled now although this is the first proper week of school for my youngest (he was only in one day last week) so will have to see how he is by Friday! so far so good though! xxx
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You’ve posted such a gorgeous photograph! I’ve got a few photos of my kids which capture a moment like that and they are priceless.
I too love the freedom of time alone to work and be creative but also miss the lovelinesses of having them around. x
I was determined to get a nice shot of the three of them at the lake so I was pleased with this one! Thanks Hillie.xx
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Aw, what a lovely post. Yes, it is all such a strange mixture of emotions, isn’t it? Ah well… sending hugs. xxx
Thanks Marija, hope ‘back to school’ is going well for you. xx
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Maddy, you’ve been through it all today! I’m exhausted just reading this post. Bless you, hon, it was bound to be a day of mixed emotions and we parents are always the ones who come out worse for these types of days – the kids usually fly through them.
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You’re right, the boys were fine! I’m just so nostalgic and sentimental! xx
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What a very lovely first day of the new chapter- even in the newness of making a cup of tea without interruption (maybe after so many years that’s what’s missing!)
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Tee hee, yes – no wonder I couldn’t get it right! xx
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It’s such a relief when you pick them up and they’ve had a good first day! Love the photo too.
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Thanks Becky, and it’s easier to be on week two than week one! xx
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I had to google that Abba song, and now it’s playing in the background, and I’m wiping tears off my cheeks!
I know what you mean about the so much to do, and glad to have it, and then spend ten minutes working out how to make a cup of tea. I swear I have a brain somewhere. So glad that What I’m Writing is back, and happy to be in the group.
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That song – just a killer at the start of term if you’re feeling nostalgic! Still struggling to find my brain. Assume it will return at some point. V happy to have you in the group, Cara xx
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All the feels indeed
Such a lovely post that almost made me well up at times too! I feel like I’m experiencing a micro version with Leigh’s two Arthur days – definitely identify with the nervous energy and sense of wonderment at actually having some TIME! Hope all the boys are still enjoying school and that you’re relishing the time to yourself xx
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Ah, Sophie, It must be your first proper child-free time in nearly four years! Bet you’ll get loads done (or perhaps not just yet – personally I’m still adapting!) This week is my youngest’s first proper week at school (last week was just one day) so it all starts now… xxx
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Aww, 1st days back at school is always bittersweet. I daren’t look up that Abba song in my current mood. That photo of your son in the reception of the school has given me a lump in the throat, let alone you! Glad to be joining in with #whatimwriting. (Always been a fan since Britain’s Next Best Blog Post days – I used to run their roundup posts and #whatimwriting was always a mine of good posts.)
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Hi Jude – I remember you from the Britian’s Next Blogpost – I really appreciated you featuring so many linky posts! Glad to have you joining in with #whatImWriting! xx
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Oh wow sounds like you’ve really had quite the mix of emotions there sounds like you’ve got to look forward to with catching up with different things #whatimwriting
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It was a very full on week in lots of ways! Bit more settled this week. Thanks for commenting, Tracey. xx
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Ah, I can feel the contentment, the exhaustion and relief coming out here Maddy! So many emotions… you deserve that glass

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Thanks, Carol. Hope ‘back to school’ is ok for you and your daughter too. xx
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